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I can't go to a Hardware Bar sober.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again.

That place is just TOOOOOOOOOOOO crazy for me to handle without being in my "happy place", XD

So I spend the entire weekend with Keith and his band, and let me tell you... those poor boys! I'm SOOOO exhausted... and THEY'RE the ones that played! I can't even IMAGINE how tired they all must be!

Anyway...

Friday night, luckily by the time the show rolled around the roads had cleared up so the show was still on (although the boys did think about canceling it because, while it was close for Keith, it was far for the rest of them). They got there, got screwed out of any free drinks or half priced food like they thought they were gonna get and then played a show. The show went well and they had a pretty nice sized crowd, especially considering the weather and the fact that they're from Harrisburg and not Allentown, but there were a lot of people there, regardless.

And there was this guy there that came up to me in between sets and goes "I would like to buy you a drink." I told him that I was married to the drummer and actually had to go meet him backstage, and then he goes "Oh... well, I supposed that wouldn't be very appropriate, would it?" So I said, "Well, I guess not........." And then he goes, "We'll, if your husband is okay with it, I would still like to buy you a drink when you get back." So I said, alright and went on my merry way. I went back stage to find Keith and someone had called the band to talk to them... I'm guessing the manager, so they actually exited straight off the stage rather than coming back stage... so I went back out and got my drink, XD.

He kept asking "He won't mind, will he?" "Nah, he'll be fine."

Keith comes over and jokes with him, saying something like "Hey man, don't be f***ing making the moves on my woman!" ... which irritated me, because when he does that the guys don't realize at first that he's kidding until he gets to the "hahaha, I'm just kidding man..." part......... In any case, then this guy, who really liked them, ended up not only buying me a drink, but the whole band a shot and the night was good.

We got home INSANELY late, and then got to wake up the next morninging INSANELY early because they had a small set in Harrisburg the next morning at Ski-roundtop.

And IIIIIIIIIIII was fantastically awesome because I left my purse there. So now I'm without an ID, a phone... the debit card to our main account............... the engineer has it, and I have to pick it up... but IIIIIIIIIIIII don't have it.

...and the fact that I didn't have my ID sucked because they had a gig at the Hardware bar later that night.

They got me in by helping me load in, but I *DID* get asked for my ID by the head security guard before the first set even happened. SURPRISINGLY he was nice... I had my old non-expried ID with my maiden name on it... and that would have worked all on its own if it weren't for the hole in the magnetic strip that the DMV put in...... and I had my old SS card and my new SS card... and he goes "Welp, you're already in here so... sure."

Sweet! No waiting in the van for 5 hours for me! XD

That show was good too... lots of people were there and they were well recieved... but I just CAN'T handle that place sober. The MINDLESS stupid music they play... the "almost hookers" bartenders serving drinks and dancing on the bars....... the VOLUME every second the club is open.... There's also a whole different breed of drunkenness that happens in there... and its a REAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY annoying kind.

but none the less.. it was a good show.

And then AFTER that show.................. we decided to stop in at a McDonalds because I was hungry...... and this is where we had to call the cops on someone.

We ordered our food and pulled around the corner just in time to see some dude standing in front of his SUV screaming "LETS GO BITCH! C'MON!" at a car sitting betweent he pickup windows. The dude jumped over the medium, pulled the sedan passenger side door open... we THOUGHT he was gonna pull whoever was in there out of the car, we heard a girl screaming after his arm went into the car... then he jumped back across the medium, got in his SUV, made a u-turn, stopped on his way past them again, yelled out his window "COME ON BITCH! WHAT NOW?!" and then sped off.

We called 911, gave them the color and make of the SUV, and hte license plate, what direction he went, what went down, etc etc etc.

Turns out there was a female driver and a male passenger in the car in front of us. SUV guy is presumed to be the girls either current boyfriend or ex boyfriend... the male passenger is assumed to be a friend she was with and the boyfriend got jealous... someone she was cheating with... or a new boyfriend.

Either way... SUV guy was pissed........................... and maced them both in the face (which is what was happening when we saw him reach in the car and thought he was going to pull them out...)

So yeah... cops showed up and it was all increadibly exciting.

woo!

XD

F*** YOU ALLENTOWN!

LEARN TO MOTHER EFFING DRIVE YOU DICKWADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you have no idea how much I HATE the people that drive in this freakin town.

...and bethlehem.

they're effing RETARDED there too.

>:(

True Tolerance Can Never be Fully Achieved

o·pen-mind·ed-

adj. Receptive to new and different ideas or the opinions of others.

tol⋅er⋅ance-

1. a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward those whose opinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differ from one's own; freedom from bigotry.

2. a fair, objective, and permissive attitude toward opinions and practices that differ from one's own.

big⋅ot⋅ry-

1. stubborn and complete intolerance of any creed, belief, or opinion that differs from one's own.

con⋅vic⋅tion-

1. a fixed or firm belief.

Once upon a time a question was asked an biblically based answer was given. The inquirer reacted with scorn and words like "bigot", "close-minded", "bitch", "rude", and "idiot" were flung at the person who answered.

This is why the so-called tolerance movement of today angers me.

We are called by society to tolerate everything. Tolerate abortion, tolerate homosexuality, tolerate all religions... to tolerate *everything* except hate. Yet in the midst of all of this "tolerance", *hate* and *intolerance* against Christianity is steadily growing.

There was a story of a gay couple in a state that allows gay marriage who approached a pastor to marry them. They asked him to go against his religion and be...

o·pen-mind·ed-

adj. Receptive to new and different ideas or the opinions of others.

...and asked him to marry them. However, he refused to marry them because of his "religious...

con⋅vic⋅tion-

1. a fixed or firm belief.

...that homosexuality was wrong and that biblically speaking, marriage should be only between one man and one woman. So what did the couple do? Naturally, they sued the pastor for prejudice and basically behaving with

big⋅ot⋅ry-

1. stubborn and complete intolerance of any creed, belief, or opinion that differs from one's own.

Good for them for fighting for tolerance! Right?... Right????

Wait a minute...

...They sued... the pastor... because... he was... intolerant of their belief that homosexuality is not wrong and that they should be able to be wed?

... ... ... Where was the tolerance for the pastor?

"What are you talking about?! You're crazy! Tolerance for the bigot pastor?!"

Yes. Tolerance for the bigot pastor.

The pastor was accused of being close minded, (NOT receptive to new and different ideas or the opinions of others), intolerant (NOT taking a permissive attitude toward those whose opinions, practices, race, religion, nationality, etc., differ from one's own), and behaving like a bigot (stubborn and completely intolerant of any creed, belief, or opinion that differed from his opinion). He was accused of having religious conviction (a fixed or firm belief).

But what about the couple? Were THEY not close-minded to the *pastors* ideas? Were THEY not intolerant of his believes because they differed from their own? Were they not bigots-completely stubborn against his Christianity?

If THEY were open minded, if THEY were tolerant, I believe the situation would have gone much differently. If THEY were tolerant, they would have left the pastor at peace and found someone *willing* to perform the marriage for them, rather than attacking the pastor.

Every force has an equal and opposite reaction.

You can't have tolerance without INtolerance. But the sad part is, that the intolerance is now being disguised as tolerance and is being justified by a large part of society. The pastor did nothing to hurt the gay couple... he simply said no to their request.

Christians are beginning to be largely persecuted and there is starting to be a large and strong reaction against the mere mention of the words Christianity, Jesus, Faith, and Prayer.

It's not like we all weren't aware that it would get to this point and continue to worsen... but that doesn't mean that it doesn't sadden us anyway.

Let's play a game called "How often will I ACTUALLY see my husband this week"

Monday- I work from 8am-5pm. He teaches from 3pm-11am. Then he went to practice at the church. I went to sleep at 1130am. He came home at one. I don't even remember him coming home.

Tuesday- I work from 8am-5pm. He has rehearsal tomorrow which means he'll be gone by 5pm and not home until AT LEAST 12am/1am... I will be asleep by then.

Wednesday- I work from 8am-5pm. He has a lesson and then has a rehearsal, which means he'll be gone by 5pm and not home until AT LEAST 12am/1am... I will be asleep by then.

Thursday- I work from 8am-5pm. I am driving to NJ to meet him and his band there for a showcase that they are playing. I'll see him as he is conversing with the bigwig and his band members... but no alone time.

Friday- I work from 8am-5pm. OH MY GOD! maybe I'll actually SEE him this night... although he will probably disappear to practice at some point.

Saturday- TBD

Sunday- Church at 11am... shower at 12/1230.

Goooooooooood... so... MAYBE I'll see him Friday. And who knows if I'll see him Saturday... Sunday looks good though.

:/

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello Blog.

I have neglected you.

Sorry.

::deep inhale::

::holds breath::

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

::deep breath in::

::slow release out::

it may... or may not... be time for another self-analyzation.

::clears throat::

I'm angry, bitter and short-tempered. I have lots of things I need to be doing and I don't do them because I don't *feel* like doing anything. I can't manage to be a functioning human being at the moment. I feel like my life is at an absolute standstill again. I feel like my degree was a waste of four years and my parent's hard-earned money. I'm having photographers feeding me pipe dreams again that I'm sitting here contemplating, full well knowing it's never going to happen, for the sheer fact that I don't have the $3,000 it would take just to get *started*... and MAYBE if I didn't already have all this debt... MAYBE I could... but I do, so I can't. Things I was excited for before, no longer interest me... Things that I was aspiring to before, anger me.

My sex drive is WORSE than dead.

I feel like my husband is beginning to resent me for that fact. And when he says he understands, I don't believe him because of the comments that follow a couple hours after the fact.

I feel stuck, and hopeless and worthless.

Saying that I have no motivation is an understatement.

I can find happiness for a few moments at a time.

Everything irritates me. I don't want to be living in this house anymore. I'm tired of being so dependent. I'm tired of not being able to make him *really* *truly* understand how I'm feeling.

My faith is being challenged.

I need something to stand on again. And I need that something to propel me forward, because if I don't start moving up and forward, it's only going to get worse from here.

Does this sound like depression?

Where in the HELL does that shit come from?! I have no real reason to be depressed... no... no, I take that back. As a worldly person, I do... I guess. But as a Christian... no.. I don't. I guess right there is the problem and the answer all in one.

Dear God,

Yeah, look at me. I'm a HOT mess again. Don't you love that? Keith certainly does... I'm having an issue I was wondering if You could help me with... I know I'm supposed to focus on You, above all else. And I know that by focusing on You, You will open up every door that I need opened for my life... granted on Your time, I understand that... but still.

But this is where I begin to have problems. I am impatient, and I'm having issues trusting right now, and I'm afraid that focusing on You will lead me no where with everything in my life that is beating me down at the moment. I know that's not true, but I'm afraid to *really* let go and do what I'm supposed to be doing. I need your help with that... and I need you to get Keith to help me with that.... and I need you to give him an abundance of understanding and patients with me...

I'm struggling and I need your help.

Love,

Emily

Church ★WIN!★

http://www.perrynoble.com/2009/12/14/this-sh_t-is-awesome/